As someone who suffers with 2 blood disorders – ITP, or ImmuneThrombocytopenic Purpura – which causes a thinning of the blood, & APS, or Antiphospholipid Syndrome – which can cause blood clots. [Yes, I know – they should be cancelling each other out, shoudn’t they?] – I begin to wonder whether I should believe Johnson & co about this.
I haven’t had my vaccine yet due, in part, to my strong – and very conflicted – feelings about it, given that there are still side-effects appearing and, especially, since I read in the news today, from reputable newspapers, that there are now other countries pausing the vaccine, due to people suffering with blood clots, with some deaths, too.
On the one hand, I have my own, extremely lovely, and genuinely helpful, Blood Nurse who, I presume, is getting her information from the NHS site, or even the government site, and is assuring me that the vaccine is safe for me to take – although, once again, I don’t know if she has seen, today, that some of the symptoms that have appeared recently, are the same as the APS that I already have
On the other hand, we have other countries, who have paused the vaccine until they can investigate further as to it’s safety.
Who should I believe?
A government who have shown time, and time again, that they don’t give a damn about the disabled, and don’t care how many of us die? A government who have lied, delayed, and generally have been aiming for Herd Immunity, from the very beginning of this crises, rather than putting a stop to travel immediately that the news broke about the Virus – and have done everything they can, before this happened, and since, to make life hell for those of us, who are disabled?
Or other Countries, who seem to care about how many of their citizens may be affected by the side-effects of the vaccine, to the point of pausing it until they find out the truth?
People keep telling me that the risk is less than if I were to catch the virus – and I guess they have a point. But I’ve been sheltering for years now, even before the virus came calling and, to those who compile the statistics, it might be crazy for me not to have the vaccine but, to me, it might mean an even bigger chance of losing my life, to have the vaccine, before more is known!
My life is crap most of the time – but it’s still the ONLY life I have, when all’s said and done!
And so, I sit here, going from one decision to the other, not knowing for certain what might be my best choice, for my own self preservation!